why oh why? I agreed to work tomorrow. for a new biz pitch. I am sure it will be fine tomorow but right now, friday evening at 6:12 PM PST I feel like I have been run over by and 18 wheeler. And why? I am not sure...its not like I have been busy today or anything. I have been fairly busy..lots of busy work, stuff that takes 1/2 max to do. And other moments of oh dear god will this friday end?? I just need to go home and sleep for once. However I have to wait until dinner is delievered for those working late into the night. usually it will take only an hour....but tonight the service is very busy and was told that it will be more than an hour...I hope it doesn't take too long.

I will be in sunny Phoenix in one week. From today. Hanging out with my sister and waiting patiently for the CM show to start. I got an email from Fred, the lead singer/drummer today. It should be a fun show!! The next day Scott and I are going to the Phoenix open. Lisa's boss gave her tickets. Apparently that means we get greens passes, food and drink and other "VIP" treatment. I can't believe I am going to a golf tournment. I guess you have to try everything at least once. At least its something to do while Lisa is working. On Friday during the day I will take her to work and then explore Phoenix on my own, since they both work. That will be an adventure.

excersise=good. I have had 3 days of working out after about 4 months of not doing it. I had been walking a lot, but this is the good kind of working out when your muscles burn, you get all sweaty, hot and gross. I LOVE IT. I can already tell during the day that I have more energy. Its the mornings that I am dead to the world and don't want to wake up. I am really looking forward to Saturday so I can sleep in. I think my body needs sleep at this point.

In one week, I will be flying to see my sister in Phoenix. I am very excited I haven't seen her since last christmas. Way too long. We are going to just hang out....oh yeah and go to a Cowboy Mouth show!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Damn it I want to go to Mardi Gras!!! Harry, Cowboy Mouth, NONC, BTE, and more....I WANT TO GO!! But I need to try to think about this reasonably. If I want to move...I can't go running off to Mardi Gras. I have to be an adult. It just hard sometimes. Looking at the big picture I know this is for the best. But right now I just want to book a plane ticket and be there. A few days ago I wanted to just do that and pack up and ship the rest of my personal items to NOLA. Just screw it and go. Didn't care that I didn't have a job or a place to stay there, I just wanted to be there. I get random urges...or longings I guess out of NOWHERE and I will want to be in NOLA walking down a certain street. I have never had that before. I don't know what, if anything is down there for me. But I won't know until I get there. I don't remember the last time I have wanted to do something so bad in my life. Sure I have had goals, but this one seems like well, life changing. And I am ready for it. Will everything change? Maybe, maybe most everything will stay the same. Its time.

I found a job that may just help me get to NOLA just a tad quicker. I just hope they are still looking...and that I am that person they need. Its an assistant stage manager for a theater in Baton Rouge. Its $200.00 plus housing. Thats $200 a week. Not a whole lot of money but I am hoping I get it. Of course I am freaking because I sent in my resume almost 24 hours ago and haven't heard anything. I just wish I had looked earlier at the website. The job was posted on Dec. 19th. Oh well only time will tell. I will be missing my dad's birthday celebration however if I get the job. and I had just bought the plane ticket for going to Denver like an hour before finding the job. Oh well.

Speaking of jobs...Feb 7th I will have been here at Publicis for 4 years. WOW.